Centuries Under the Moon (8)

The day was a long one for Stephen. He knew the hunters sought out Marius. He learned that Marius only sought immortality for his own gain–meaning that he lied to Antoine about his intentions and that he was dying.  Vampires usually can discern motive, but with Marius’ knowledge of black arts, it is reasonable to see that a spell prevented Antoine from seeing right through him.

Once again, another person was making remarks about others that Stephen KNEW would set Victoria off again, so he bought them tickets to a basketball game to get them out of the mansion prior to her awakening and sitting in the dining room with the others. She noticed the couple’s absence. Her anger was for the fact that they tried to go into the mausoleum which was locked tight.

“I see you diverted the ones who angered me earlier.” she mused.

“Let’s not discuss it. They aren’t here. Either way, Antoine will deal with that crap later. They overstepped their bounds by trying to get into the mausoleum.” Stephen said as the others watched for a response.

“There is no bloody damned reason they should want in there! Stephen’s body is all that is housed there at the moment! At the least they should have discussed going in there with me–” she snapped.

“I agree and I will address that. I want to know their intentions myself. Calm down Victoria. I’ll get to the bottom of this.” Antoine said.

“Then you’d better cross their paths before I do. I won’t be as methodically congenial as you tend to get ad nauseam when someone in this house gets utterly stupid! That crypt is the one place I give a damn about! It’s not like my family would bury me with them in the family cemetery since they thought I brought this on myself, right?!” she protested.

“Victoria, calm yourself. You are losing control and uttering nonsense! You know how superstitious some of the family members were then. Either go feed or something but you must calm yourself.” Antoine directed.

When the couple had returned two hours later it was Victoria they ran right into.

“Oh–Mrs. Wexl-”

“Save it. Why did you try to enter the crypt that my husband is in?” she demanded to know as her eyes began to glow.

“Mrs. Wexley, we weren’t going to open any sarcophagus, we wanted pictures of what we heard was the art on the back wall. When we saw it was locked, we did pull the lock, but that was all. We were going to come ask you to take us there–”

“Oh…The sculptures.  Really?” she mused.

“Oh yes! Rumor has it that those were made by a famous Italian sculptor that my great-great-great-grandfather knew!” the woman told her.

“Yeah, Amanda only wanted to see the sig at the base to see if it matches, that’s all. We weren’t going to bust open a grave or anything–I promise!” the young man told her as he handed her some documents that were in a bag.

“I told you I will handle this!” Antoine snapped as he took them from her.

“Why–”

“Because you wouldn’t know a forged document from Europe. I would.” he told her.

“But–”

“Come if you like but you will not interrupt me.” he told her. He then motioned for all of them to follow him into the den, which they did.

He sat and began to review the documents…

“Well?” Victoria asked.

“One more word and I’ll have Stephen take you to your room.” he warned.

“How did you come to be in possession of these papers?” Antoine asked them.

“They were in my father’s belongings when he died last year.” The young woman answered. Antoine could discern her honesty which was genuine. She had red hair and the most intense green eyes Antoine had seen.

“You know Victoria and Stephen were your great-great-great-aunt and uncle, correct?” he asked.

“I wasn’t sure on that–the aunt and uncle thing. As you can see those papers are rather faded, but there is mention of her brother there-” she said.

“Exactly.  He married a girl in Italy 10 years after Victoria’s death.  They came back here to live.  That artist was her father. His name was Armande Busciari.  He was very well-renowned in that era.  He was also close friends with Mr. Wexley’s father.  These papers are authentic, but why didn’t you simply share this with Victoria when you arrived?  It is her right to deal with these matters here. You realize this correct? You two are quite young and I can see why you were being rash, but she is very protective of that vault.”

“I gathered that, Sir. I am sorry. I got ahead of myself I guess.” the young man told him.

“I don’t think you understand a thing.” Antoine told him.

“Wha–”

He threw the blue powder on him and yelled, “Show yourself!”

“Damn!” he hissed as Victoria and two others grabbed him.

“I should have known!’ Antoine said.

“Look! I can explain–she was just there so I–”

“Took advantage of this girl? For what reason?  And do NOT lie to me!”  Antoine yelled.

“Look…I just want to know the History around here–”

“REALLY?!  That’s not what this one says!” Antoine yelled as others brought one of Marius’ spies in.

“He said if I don’t give him details of Mrs. Wexley’s  movements in and outside of the house, he’ll kill my son! He has him!” the young man yelled.

“IS this true?” Antoine said slowly as his countenance changed and he looked at the male spy.

“I said IS THIS TRUE?!” he yelled.

The spy nodded in fear. Marius and his lot always feared the power of Antoine.

“How old is your boy?” he asked the young man.

“Only 3.  He took him from his bed the other night–”

“W-W-Would he harm—a—baby, Antoine?” Victoria asked as her eyes began to well up.

“I believe you know the answer. You had to get Stephen to send your daughter away when she was 11. Remember?” he asked calmly.

“You are in no shape to battle him right now.” Stephen told her.

“He is right. Stay here and do not leave.  Arianna–get the clan together. We’ve got a child to retrieve.  Stephen,  you stay with her and do not let her leave this house!” he ordered.

“You’ve got it.” Stephen said as his eyes began to glow again.

“Definitely, her great, great, great-grandson, Michael said as he entered the den.  But we want the spy.  He beat my sister.  When you are done, may we have him?” he asked.

“Of course. You stay with Victoria and Stephen.  Brendan, lock this idiot up for his own protection. I wouldn’t want Victoria to exert herself ripping him apart yet!”  Antoine yelled as he and 20 others exited the mansion.  He also had the young man locked up in an upstairs room for his protection but the girl stayed with Victoria and Stephen.

“I am so sorry,” she began, “I had no idea–”

“It’s alright. All you had to do is ask. Stephen and Mrs. Parker can show you that tomorrow. Strange…I have an odd feeling. Something doesn’t seem right around here.” she said.

“But why would he break into the vault–or the spy lead him here unless it is to try to–”

“To help them get in!” Stephen snapped as he summoned Antoine to return.

3 had attacked one of the watchers before Stephen intervened and Victoria’s relative, Michael, staked them all as if he were a ninja wielding a sword. The others fled when they saw Stephen’s eyes flare up and this vampire hunter beside him.  In reality Antoine sent 10 of the others and surrounded his own house with the rest.  When he entered and saw the carnage, he realized it was Mrs. Parker they attacked. It was already too late.

“We must stake her as well–”

“Not yet–make sure fir–”

“She is gone, Victoria.” Stephen told her.

“Take Victoria upstairs, Stephen. I’ll deal with this now. If the man’s son is alive, we’ll have him here within the hour.  He was telling the truth about that much.  He really doesn’t know why they targeted him but I do.  He is of my lineage. I’ll deal with him.  He is of no threat and even Michael can see this.” Antoine said.

Victoria turned unusually pale as the smell of Mrs. Parkers spilled blood filled her senses. She couldn’t watch Michael stake her…”If I could vomit I would.” she thought. She stood as two others began to clean the blood on the carpet after she had been staked.

“She is at peace now, Victoria.” Antoine reassured her as he put a hand on her shoulder and turned to face Stephen again.

“One watcher’s family replacing anther?” Stephen asked.

“It is our law. He and his family will live here. He has a duty to protect them also now. He was plotting to get his boy out when I read his thoughts. For now though, take Victoria upstairs. She is quite traumatized but what has transpired here. ” Antoine said.

Victoria was shaken by the events as they entered her room.

“Victoria, it will be alright. They will retrieve the boy. That is your maternal instinct kicking in, you know that?” he said as he tried to comfort her.

“When my daughter was five I made sure she wasn’t aware of my presence when I visited.  She couldn’t know of my existence.  Neither could my son. I feel badly for that man.” she said.

“I know you are very sensitive about children—”

“And when people make stupid remarks about something as precious as their own child, I get very heatedly angry.” she said.

“Yes I know this.” he said.

“I was really stupid earlier. Antoine knew something was amiss all along. He always does and I always go off the bloody deep end as you would say.” she mused.

“I think he likes that–when you get angry like that. I think you remind him of someone perhaps.” he said.

“I have much to learn still before I can deal with Marius.” she admitted.

“Well at least you know that much.  You did deduce the motive for that spy leading the other man here.”  he told her as he put an arm around her.

“I don’t know how I knew that. I just did.” she said as she leaned toward him and paused.

“Why Mrs. Parker?  Why did they kill her so brutally like that?” she asked.

“Because they are animals with no conscience–like Marius and Marius probably figured out that you were growing close to her.” Stephen told her.

“It is due to the fact that human blood takers took her that she has to be staked?” she asked.

“Yes. She’s under their control if they don’t.”

“Then why am I not under Marius’ control? He’s a human blood taker–”

“And you were his first victim.” Antoine said as he walked through the open door.

“I don’t follow–”

“He made an agreement with me to help benefit our clan. He lied. He sought immortality. He wanted you for a bride.  Since he broke the covenant with me, I have the right to do what is necessary to limit his power. I took you out from under him and disowned him. He can no longer control you but he doesn’t realize it fully.  Since I created him, you are under my dominion, Victoria.  Should anything happen to me, your will is your own, as is this sanctuary.” he told her.

“Then why can you not stop the others?” she asked.

“Because I disowned Marius after he attacked you and I removed his control over you.  Disowning him freed his will from mine.” he told her.

“Why did you save me? You could have killed me and–”

“Stop feeling sorry for yourself and think of your descendants. They are in danger, Victoria. I know how you hate what the world has become and I know how you hate this existence but at least you have a healer.  I do not. Maybe one day I will.  Our timelines are somewhat intertwined so maybe Stephen is here for all of us.  However he has one specific purpose and that is to help you defeat Marius.  Work with him to that end and stop shutting him out of your life. You two are here for a reason.  Let him be who he is meant to be.”  Antoine told her as he left.

“I don’t understand–”

“Believe in me, Victoria. Just believe in me.” Stephen said as he turned her to face him.

“I don’t know what to believe in any longer.” she mused.

“The reason you tend to get this way is that because you laid dormant, you didn’t get past your fledgling days.  That will change, I promise.” he said.

“The people thought I was cursed. That is why they put me in that vault.  Stephen didn’t want me to alone, yet I couldn’t change him–”

“And you did the right thing.” Stephen said as he made her look into his eyes.

“By not changing me then, we can make things right together now. You don’t see that yet, but we will do this and we will do this together.  Why can you not believe in me now?” he said.

“Your name is Stephen, but I am not the same as I was before I was changed and I am not sure that you are either. You are of this time. I don’t see how you can possibly begin to understa–”

He cut her off and kissed her as he pulled her close to him and kicked the door shut as he led her that direction. He then pulled her to him and led her to the bed.

One of the servants was going to go check on her when Antoine stopped him, “Leave them be.  They are resolving an issue.”

The male servant obeyed and went back downstairs.

“Well I know one damned thing that’s never changed about either of us.” he said, knowing that he was risking much by pushing her this far.

Then he remembered those words in French and said them into her ear.  At first she pushed him away and looked startled as his eyes glowed an even brighter shade of pink.

“H–How could you know–”

“That this was the last thing I said to you before I died back then?  It’s simple, woman! I was there dammit!” he said firmly as he took her right back into his arms and kissed her again–this time not as forcefully.  This time was different. This time he was much more gentle–probing…Waiting…When her arms went around his neck, he knew that he was winning, and the tear that escaped her eye only confirmed that she was at least believing him SOMEWHAT.  However, he knew he had all night to convince her now…”

“Enjoy your moment while you can.” Marius interjected.

“Piss off!” they both thought as Marius shrieked and left them be.

“I think I just proved my point. We always had a knack for thinking the same shit and ending each others sentences in the boudoir.” Stephen thought.

“Be quiet.” she thought as she began to unbutton his shirt.

“No problem.” was the response she got, knowing that he was grinning over his triumph.

“Don’t leave me again–” she thought as her thoughts began to swim wildly with every word he told her and every touch.

 

‘You’re damned right I won’t.  This time we will be forever. I promise. Thank God you fed earlier.” he said as he turned out the  lights while the spring breeze made its way through the trees.  The window was open which allowed for moonlight to enter the room.  As this night was ending, Stephen shut the window as she put her head down to sleep for the day.  She felt relieved once she heard the others come back with the little boy.  They returned just before dawn with him.

“Everything is as it should be now, Victoria.” he whispered to her as he lay next to her and slept.

 

 

 

Nana Gets the Double Whammy!

I am not expecting a grandchild…I’m expecting TWO!  I am a bit overwhelmed at the moment. I feel kind of torn.  All I can say is, the 2nd one will probably be here two to three weeks after the first one and I have massive planning to do…I was almost to a point where I could plan around one–but two that close together? Oh boy…I always said if it’s weird or unusual it will happen around here when I’m around…

I can get to the front of the checkout line at Wal~Mart and the power will go dead–among other things.  Can someone send me a bottle of  Hendrick’s Gin? I could really use a few mixed drinks about now…I know this much–better those girls than moi! Now I’ve got to figure out the Holidays every year all over again–and it’s going to be weird…

Then I hear the youngest really leaning toward naming his son AFTER another family member. To me this is a big no-no. I don’t go for that.  It’s just a thing with me that it seems rather silly to give a child a name they’d have to live up to–or one he or she would end up changing as an adult because he/she hates how it sounds–or he/she simply didn’t like the story behind it…  A child’s name is to be something taken very seriously. It is something they will own, and the responsibility should not be taken lightly.

I held my babies for a bit before I could even begin to come up with a name.  Then when I did, it just felt right. Sure I pondered several but the names REALLY came to me when I held them…It was the most awesome feeling to look into the child’s eyes and know I picked the right name, even though my middle son doesn’t like the meaning of his.  Oh well…Such is life. He can get over it.

Picking names for a baby is not that hard, but some people make it a chore.  I think my way is the better one.  I never needed a baby name book either….

Credibility…

For anyone who writes, they set standards for what it is they are writing about–whether it’s fiction, non-fiction, comedy, etc…Once they set the standard for the project they are working on, they had better not write anything into that project that deviates from the original standard.

For example, if I am going to write about anything with a clear-cut villain–I am not going to make that clear-cut villain a sympathetic figure in the present, even if things in the past caused his or her wrong turn–and in some cases understandably so.  In my villains backgrounds issues such as being abused, outcasts in their society, etc… is no excuse for their behaviors.  It doesn’t mean that they can’t have that small moment of reflection where they see that a mistake has been made, but they usually take the attitude, “Well, it’s a little to late to do the right thing now isn’t it? What the hell!?”

I have been tempted to have one off himself or herself so that people could say well “For once the bitch/bastard did something right!”  However I have NOT done that yet. I may do so in a spoof at some point.

There are very few instances that a villain should do a turn around, but it does not mean that they should not suffer the consequences of his/her actions. Look at the movie, “The Raven“…The villain never has such a moment–and just when you think he’s gotten away with things, BAM! Literally…That is why the audience didn’t stay too pissed at the idea of a movie being about Edgar Allen Poe being made into a “hero” of sorts.  I’m sure that he would have liked this one–it at least had some innovation in it.

What can I say here? Heathcliffe wasn’t a villain–until he  punished others for what he could never have, right? Remember? Yes, I’m talking about “Wuthering Heights”…His unrequited love in adulthood made him somewhat of an ass–especially toward the one he DID marry.  WE all know why he did that, don’t we?  Hell, he was even cruel to his own flesh and blood…However he was treated badly by others, right? Catherine did choose to marry someone else, right?  I was left wondering who the bigger ass was, actually…To me it’s a romanticized social drama–aka a soap for the time it was written…IT was a classic gothic novel though, right?

Had it been written in MODERN times, the first question that would come out of it is why did Heathcliffe have “darker skin” than the other children? If persona is our good points in the present and our “shadow” represents our flaws, then when we write, how much of ourselves is really in our villains and how much is in our heroes/heroines? In Tom Laughlin‘s book, “Nine Indispensable Ingredients”–reading about credibility caused me to pose that question about my writing, plus the writing of others I had to read over the years. It is a book I highly recommend for any writer. You can get it on the billyjack.com site.

Now BE HONEST…How many of you WANTED to hear Catherine admit to Heathcliffe that she did love him? Bah! Humbug! Don’t lie either! Most did want that and never got it!

Now let me take the “Dark Shadows” thing as an example. The standard of credibility was already set.  It was set by Dan Curtis. HE was the creator, after all. I pose that the reason the new movie was not well received was that the screenwriters lowered the standard of credibility by elevating Angelique to a status of power in the present.  Had they stuck with the real storyline of her wanting Barnabas to elevate her own status but not gaining it, it might have had a chance in hell of making it.  By elevating her to a status of power and running Collinsport, she had no need for Barnabas anymore. As I have said before…Fans do not buy into bullshit. If you are going to try to do a re-imagining of someone else’s work, it’s better to stick with an original standard of credibility which could have been done here–even with humor injected into it.

Mr. Curtis did not deviate from his standard of credibility when he created the Dark Shadows Revival Series in 1991 either. The show rocked. It was the Gulf War that killed that one–not the cast or the fans.  Seth Grahame  Smith should know better than to mock the standard set by Curtis. That is why fans of either show didn’t like it much. The fans are more than a “drop in the bucket”. I’m sure this will be a point that will hit home eventually.  Maybe if there is a sequel, Guillermo Del Torro will direct it.  If Depp is wise, he won’t use Burton and the rest of the nepotism cast.   HE needs to keep Michele Pfeiffer and Gulliver McGrath, though.

Mr. Smith wrote his own story and dressed it up in the “Dark Shadows” name and did the same with the characters.

Think on this for a while…The original will stand.  The Revival Series will also stand–even though short-lived.  This film will be in the $5 bin at Wal-Mart within two years. Guaranteed.

These are the ONLY two actors that could EVER do the role of Barnabas Collins any justice…

Nanahood Revisited…

This is my son Kevin–in one of his quieter moments!

We are about to watch the month of May 2012 flow gracefully (or not so gracefully) into History.  There has been some much-needed rain out here and I hope we get more, but here is what is going down.

I am moving into a new house.  My son Kevin and his girlfriend Daphne are moving into a bigger house since the baby will be here before we know it.  My son, since he can’t work has stayed up at night playing video games–which can be quite entertaining if someone ever gag tapes him and puts that on YouTube in order to teach him a lesson or two!

If anyone wants to see that boy pop a gasket, just wait for some idiot with a Nazi flag to show up in the game and he will emit a list of vernacular phrases so long that it will make some of the drill sergeants I’ve seen look like choir boys! All I can say is that I sincerely hope that the baby doesn’t get kicked out of day care by the time he’s 18 months old due to the broad vocabulary he might hear from my son after his birth because if that happens, Daphne will kill Kevin!

For now it’s almost funny but the more I think on it–I seriously hope Kevin calms down when he’s gaming for the sake of the baby! I told Daphne to look at the bright side of things. If he’s already going to be up at night–then he can help take care of the baby…However changing a diaper might pose a problem since he suffers from Game Controller Hand Lock Syndrome!  He won’t be able to release the game controller!  In fact, if Daphne has to kill him it may have to pried from his cold, dead hands!  ;-)

Deep down though,  I hope that I can be half the grandmother figure in my grandson’s  life that my Grannie Ainsworth was in mine.  Barring my cooking skills, or should I say the lack thereof, I think that my cookies will past muster with the little guy when he’s older. However, I’ll never be able to make tea cakes like she did…Kevin and I were discussing this over Mother’s Day dinner.  He can definitely cook, so he did not get that skill  from yours truly, that’s for sure!  He might have gotten that knack from Grannie! That gives me hope that my grandson will inherit that same gift and thus be able to survive!   Anyway, have a great week!

Fallen…Forgotten…

I was called Fallen.  I am the one you don’t see or hear.  I stood by you when you cried, and told you all would be well.  Yet you chose to simply let me fall.  I was crushed and broken, but you were no longer there. You built your own Utopia while I faithfully stood and waited.  Silently…Hoping for some sign that my fears had not come to pass.  Then the rain fell.  As each drop penetrated my being, I longed to be part of Mother Earth once again–to have that oneness with something again, for walking on this red road has become increasingly difficult.

At least if I am part of Mother Earth, at some point we will cross paths again and I will feel your warm presence–though you will not know mine for I will be supporting your footsteps as I always have. However, the Great Spirit has other plans for me.  I will one day leave this place behind, and the grief I have with it.  As the rain washes the tears from my fading tracks, you will come to look for me but I will be gone–as well as my tracks.  And when you seek the Great Spirit to return me to you, you will find that he has sent me to where I am truly needed…

And at that point I will no longer be fallen or forgotten. I will be appreciated, needed and loved.  I have a purpose yet to fulfill in this life and will not let you drive me to such depths of despair again–let alone distract me from what I must do ever again.  Farewell, for soon you will be fallen and forgotten as my purpose on this road unfolds before me.  Even now you seek me, but I am not to be found…Please do not ask  about me or for me again. I will no longer answer for the ship I am going to leave on is waiting. I shall not look back because I have now risen.  Of the two of us, I shall now fly to my new sanctuary. Peace.

My Sanctuary

The Bullying Issue…AGAIN

Alright, this is for those who have read my past blogs on bullying.  I have now come up with some ideas on how to resolve a lot of this, and it came to me when I found out a friend’s daughter was getting bullied and the school switched her classes without telling anyone.

First, in TX, that is NOT supposed to happen. Parents are supposed to be notified prior to schedule changes–esp. mid semester.

For one:  All schools should be required to report any bullying incident to the parent(s) of all parties involved within an hour of becoming aware of it.  That way the PARENTS can actually be involved in addressing the issue.

Two: NO VICTIM should ever have the same classes, lunch break or any extra curricular activity with the bully. Putting the victim in a class with the person who abused them is akin to putting a rape victim in the same room with his/her attacker. It is psychologically devastating and it is abusive of schools to do this to a child who has been bullied.

Three: IT should always be up to the parent(s) of the victim(s) whether or not to file charges–NOT THE DISTRICT. It is their child getting hurt.

Four: Bullies should not be allowed to ride the school buses. Make their parents responsible for their child’s transportation.  Bullies tend to act out on a bus a lot.

Five:  every state should add sections with protections like those mentioned above. At least it’s a start…

Given the fact that many of the public schools now feel like prisons to the victims, I say an extension of the PREA (Prison Rape Elimination Act) should be expanded to include a rule that public school personnel who fail to tell parents and take measures to protect the victim should be held liable–especially if they fail to report the incident. If that incident is a sexual assault of some type they should be required to tell not only the parents but the police themselves.   Even if it is not a rape, but molestation of some type, it is still a crime punishable under the law. However many districts choose to sweep this under the rug–unless it’s an adult doing this to a child.

If steps like these are not taken soon, then it is children who are victims of violence and emotional abuse that are being silenced and then left behind. Think about that. This being said, I feel that aggravated suicide must be made a punishable crime in all 50 states.

The student population has a growing number of children from gang families coming into the school systems. Many of those have family members that are incarcerated and have learned their violent behaviors at home. You also have “average kids” who bully because they are abused at home.  These things must be addressed in order to make a safe learning environment for all children. Any district failing to enact measures to protect these children should be subject to loss of federal funding also.

This bullying which leads to violence, death and aggravated suicide must stop and it must stop now.

I Am Sharing this for a REASON…Don’t Text and Drive!

This is a clip to a video made in 2009. Ironically, people are still dying and getting injured because of this.  All it takes is a split second and someone’s life, including yours could be over. If you have teens learning to drive, or if you have done this yourself, please watch this. It may save a life, including your own. Thanks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DebhWD6ljZs

Another Empty Space…

Everywhere I look for you an empty space is there…Whether it’s the empty living room spot where you might appear, or your place in my new home where you should be…I would give anything to hear your voice one more time right now.  Years ago I saw you for the last time, and my love for you stands to this day.

I believe a lot of people try to fill their empty spaces with many, many things…

Some use relationships–but I don’t need a romantic interest to validate who I am.

Some use alcohol, which numbs the pain, but that space they long to fill is still empty.

Some use drugs, yet the pain is always there–only seeming to be more intensified.

Some use holy roads, but there are so many to choose from, so I wonder if there is a ‘right’ one at times.

Some use power, but that is because they lost their way, and the space is never filled.

Some use money, but it will not buy anything fit to fill that vacancy left in the wake of your going.

Some use possessions, as if one thing can truly replace the spirit that once inhabited that space.

I choose to reserve that space. Even if it remains unfilled, for it is not as though anything else could replace you.

Freedom puts my faith in what you left behind, and believe me, that legacy is a rich one.

Wisdom does dictate that I can create a new space for a new entity–but the Universe would really need to move a bit.

The Power of One…

One is not a lonely number, despite what the song says.   It can stand alone and be strong. It can be the first beat of many in a song and turn one voice into a throng.  There is a special power in that number at times…

One woman challenged a bus driver who told her to move from her seat to make room for a white passenger  in Montgomery, AL  on 12/1/55.  This led to the  “Montgomery Bus Boycott“.  Her name was Rosa Parks.

A lady who simply took photographs captured images on celluloid that not only brought the pain and suffering of the depression of the 1920′s to the forefront, those images caused leaders to look for solutions to end the problem. Her name was Dorthea Lange.  This is the photograph that she is most famous for:

Joan Ganz Cooney brought education of young children into every home that  had a television set!  She is the founder of the Children’s Television Workshop–and it has forever changed the lives of many children. I mean, who has not watched SESAME STREET?! C’mon!

Helen Keller became the first deaf-blind person to earn a college degree–and she changed how people perceived the disabled by showing that even they can accomplish much.

Gertrude Belle Elion is a name many of you have never heard of.  She developed two drugs that have helped people fight leukemia and in 1955 developed an immunosuppressant agent that made organ transplantation possible…Many lives have been saved due to her discoveries.

There are many others…They are all an inspiration…While these are significant events these women shaped, some events are not so significant–yet they do matter. Sometimes the simplest thing can lead to a chain reaction of thoughts and when acted upon–yes they do become things.

I was a sergeant in a correctional facility. I went into the profession with the full intent of doing well and making a positive difference.  However, as I began to promote,  I began to sink into a deep depression and was becoming very reclusive again.  I was also struggling with whether I wanted to work around people I once looked up to.  I began to go through some really deep thinking processes.  I began to analyze my life.

Many of them were not following ethics.  It is never the job of a corrections officer to punish offenders twice just for being there, but this happens. As I clamped down on some things, I realized that those above me were playing games and talking out of both sides of their mouths.  Then I read THIS short post:

http://www.fizgiggery.com/2009/real-life/a-short-story-about-karma#axzz1ruSGWQMu

After reading this, I asked my self, do I want to BE like these people that gave me this position? I knew I did not want to play their games anymore.  Now Lauren Vasil doesn’t describe karma the way I have learned to view it.  She describes it as a “domino type effect”.  I prefer to think of it more as when someone does something that is kind and right, it goes forth into the universe like the ripples go out when a pebble is thrown into the water.  Better yet, I like to think of it as traveling with the wind to inspire someone else somewhere in the world to also do something that is kind for someone else. I can relate to that more than dominoes because I spend a lot of time on a mountain–where I do much of my reflecting.

I began to sit down and analyze my life.  I asked myself ONE question.  How do I WANT to be remembered?  I ask myself this more with a grandson coming into the picture…There are three things I strive to be…Kind, patient and honest.  Those three traits run contrary to my former profession.  I did not like the creature I felt that I could become.  At least now I can look in the mirror and like the person looking back at me.  Now that being said, if this inspires someone who is in a similar rut that I was in to change their life drastically–I can promise you this.  I sleep a lot better at night since I took that cut in pay and left the corrections field.

The benefits were not worth the bull crap.  Life is good now.  I am truly blessed. Have a great weekend…

The Mistress

Once upon a time, a wise grandmother got onto her son for telling her grand-daughter to go get him a beer. The grand-daughter was only six. “You are teaching her that it is alright for her to drink when you do that.” Her son told her to mind her business. “I am. I never let you get your father’s drinks either. What you put into her is what you will get from her and by letting her put that in her hand, you are teaching her to follow your path.”
“I did not teach you to follow your father’s path. You defied me. You wake up and get a beer and you go to bed with one. It has become your mistress. I do not think it takes much to figure out why I am the only relative who comes here to help you. You loved that bottle more than her mother before she passed away, and now you love it more than your only child.”
He told her to go home and take his daughter with her so he could sleep late. He didn’t want to hear her preach at him any longer. She complied. That evening both were killed by a drunk driver as they left the market. IT was then he decided that she had been right all along. He had to lose the two people he loved the most to finally part with his mistress.